Anna Seaman
As the queues for the shopping malls grow every night and the pile of presents collecting in people’s homes get larger, my fasting month is drawing to a close.
For most people Eid al Fitr is a celebration, a time for families to get together and exchange gifts and appreciate each other’s company. Much like Christmas is at home in the UK.
But for me, with all my family and most of my friends still at home in rainy England, Eid al Fitr will be only a personal celebration. It will signify the end of a whole month of fasting, holding my tongue and refraining as much as possible from swearing and gossiping.
One might think I will enter the month of October rebelling against these self imposed restrictions, but somehow the idea of gorging myself on rich foods all day long whilst pausing to ridicule others isn’t exactly appealing. In fact, I shall be entering it reflectively.
During Ramadan I learned to structure my days around sunrise and sunset. Instead of allowing my time to slip through my fingers I suddenly became much more aware of it and conscious of how I was going to use it. As well as finding a new appreciation for food, I have a new appreciation for my time and therefore my life.
Fasting has had its ups and downs. There have been days where I have really questioned my actions and days where I have found it very difficult to function due to lethargy. I also think I have been more clumsy. I’ve broken three glasses and a plate this month — prior to Ramadan my kitchen was casualty-free.
But there have been other days when my awareness has been heightened, my thoughts clearer and my energy levels boosted. On these days I haven’t felt hunger and thirst, neither has the challenge been difficult. It has made me realise that the toughest hurdles happen in the mind. Telling yourself you are hungry, thirsty and tired will only exacerbate these feelings. If you think good, you feel good.
Ok, ok, it’s an age old adage but it helps to realise it yourself.
When I started this fast I believed that Ramadan would make anyone who fasted a better person, now that it is nearly over and I have succeeded I’m wondering if that statement was true.
I suppose that like any habits the bad ones are harder to break than the good ones but I hope that I have picked up a few pointers about myself and how to be better to my fellow man.
You’ll have to ask me later whether these changes will last...
So this week as the Eid holidays begin and families all over the region gather, I shall be taking myself off to the Red Sea and getting acquainted with the fishes. As I have blogged about previously, scuba diving is my biggest passion and a good friend of mine believes that on account of my surname, my home is in the sea. Therefore, although I won’t be spending Eid with my biological family I will be joining my marine family under the sea and I can assure you that on land, mid dives, I shall certainly be enjoying some hearty meals.